Hello beautiful.

Its been just over 3 weeks and I finally got to see him. I had quite a lot of time to think during those 3 weeks and I realized just how much I care about him. Its crazy how much a little time apart can effect a relationship. I just hope that his time away from me had a similar effect on him. I honestly have only felt this way about 1 other person in my life. I know its only been 3 months, but he already means so much to me. Yes, I’ve had other relationships, but none of them were serious. I’m really hoping that this is the one. Call it wishful thinking if you’d like. He is just such an amazing person. Inside and out. I’ve never met anyone nearly as perfect as he is. I don’t want to say it, but I just might be falling in love with him. Wish me luck!

I hate sleeping alone. Every once in a while its okay. It means I can stretch out and steal all the covers and sleep in whatever strange position I feel like. But that only lasts for about one night. Then the cold sets in. I cant feel the heat from his side of the bed. I cant roll over and snuggle up against him. And I realize hes not there. Then my mind starts racing. Thinking about where he is and what hes doing. Wondering if he has as hard of a time sleeping without me as I do without him. I pull all the covers around me, I move all the pillows around, I roll over, I spread out, I curl up in a ball. I build a pillow wall where you should be, but nothing helps. I still cant sleep. You’re still not here. Eventually I get tired enough from running so many miles with my thoughts that I fall asleep and then the worst part comes. I wake up, and you’re not there.